Let's see: it's saturday night, I'm exhausted from work, sick with a cold, floating and drunk feeling from the strong migraine medicine I took but strangely... I feel organized. Idk if that makes sense, but like I know exactly what I wanna do. like homework wise even. weiirdd. It must be the medicine.

so. lately I've been like OMGBUYTHINGS. haha. I never knew having your own money was so empowering! I can afford and buy all the things I want now without my parents complaining because ITS MY MONEY. I love that feeling, it's so great. I bought the new SID single and got it in the mail the other day. It's amazing as usual. SID's def. my fav. band ever. haha. <3 I also ordered from KuRt DVD of pvs, an Irokui single that I don't have and the DIO live DVD that I should get Monday or Tuesday. :3 I also bought these adorable Hello Kitty earmuffs that I should be getting soon and my loli dress from F+F STILL hasn't been shipping. =3= 

I got xmas presents for Courtney and Brooke. Each a book 'cos that's something you can never go wrong with. Though, I might get them something more like candy, 'cos a book just doesn't seem like enough, esp now that Courtney has this idea to get Brooke and John to pull together with her to get me an $80 coat from H&M. XD gosh, if she srsly does it, man... I need to get her something amazing for her bday, haha. 

I'm going to go see sissy the Thurs-Sun of the beginning of winter break. I CANT FUCKING WAIT LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA. It's so hard being so far away from the one you love. Even though we talk to each other a 2389283923 hours a day, it still isn't the same as physically being there, watching them smile when they're reminded of something funny, or laugh when you do something stupid, or to hold their hand as you walk and give them a kiss on the cheek when they least expect it. So, even if it isn't for that long that I get to be with her, it is def. better than nothing because it was really hard to get my dad to cave. So, I am thankful to the Fates [for once xD]. 

oh! I also bought sissy's sexpot stuff and her surprise today. It BETTER GET HERE IN TIME FOR XMAS. >OOO

I wonder who else I need to buy xmas gifts for? I guess a secret santa thing for Japan Club, I should get something for John? maybe. Idk, it depends. I'll prolly get Sasha something 'cos I've been around her so often I feel close to her. I wonder if I should ask all the Techies if we could do a secret santa thing too. That might fly, 'cos I really like them all and wanna do something cool/get something cool for them. I also need to get my dad's CD, my mom headphones and maybe Scott's Beckham shirt. if I have the money, hah. 

now this feels less like an entry and more like me gathering my thoughts. XD [maybe it is.] 

School's been easy peasy as usual, but I realize I really need to go see a play for drama so I can get an A, and I have to get an A in anatomy for this quarter 'cos English may end up as my B class. I can only afford to get one B per quarter 'cos that's what my parents expect from me. and, I have no problem with it, 'cos it's not too difficult. I just gotta get to studying for the anatomy test and see a play for stagecraft. XD

I've started to come to terms with my hate for my job. like, I feel like I dont hate it as much. The work isn't hard, the hours DO suck, but it's so busy this time of year it seems to fly by. While one manager can be a bitch, she's nice often. well, often enough, haha. and I dont have to worry about getting offa work to see sissy, 'cos I can just call in sick that weekend, or lie about a family emergency 'cos its the only weekend I need off now. Though, I'll prolly have to work on my bday since it's a Saturday, but if I get a paycheck that weekend than its sorta a bday present in itself 'cos I get money? XD haha. But after the holiday season's over I might start looking for a diff. job 'cos I DO want something that pays better than 6.50 an hour. I know there are places, like the library or at the mall, but the deal with my dad was that I can only quit after working at least six months. 

another thing about getting my own money is that I can get all the things my parents would never buy for me, like lolita clothes. I can buy brand now if I wanted and it's really exciting! I've always loved lolita and it feels great that I can finally start my lolita wardrobe! :3 though, a part of me wishes I was more of a vk kinda person, but sissy tells me that lolita fits me more. haha, she also told me she's always wanted a lolita gf and it makes me feel happy that I can give that dream to her. heehee. I've always wanted a vk significant other [be it boy or girl] and sissy fits that bill pefectly as well! plus she has the type of body I love; curvy. big tits, tiny waist and nicely rounded hips. I don't care what she thinks of herself, I love her and her body. She's so amazing. <3